A dark memoir of an addict who was addicted to everything – especially if it meant it was going to kill her in the end. Booze, weed, cocaine and every party drug you can imagine were her daily go-to's but then she found the true love of her life and her ultimate demise, Crystal Meth.
Meth was the dirtiest drug she had ever taken both inside and out. It's a low grade drug also known as poor man's cocaine that ravaged her mind, body and soul like nothing else ever could. She could feel herself changing – morphing into something ugly. The goodness of her heart and the compassion of her soul began to melt away like skin off the bone. After four years on the drug and at 29 years of age she felt like a senior citizen. Her bones ached from disintegration, her organs were going into failure and she had been given four years to live. She couldn’t smile anymore, hadn't smiled in months and was horrified by her reflection. It was like looking into the face of an emaciated demon who's only desire was to kill and be killed.
The story plunges deep into the rabbit hole of violence, unsavoury characters she meets along the way and ultimately becomes the monster she swore she would never become. As a child she had a long list of thing she would never do – when her addiction got through with her there was almost nothing left on that list. Her goal was to be free and happy; instead she got locked into a cage of internal prison grappled and maimed by the mangy claws of addiction and its cunning, baffling and powerful ways.
As a manipulative, lying junkie, who was living with an abusive meth supplier, Christine never thought she'd get out alive – at least that's what she was hoping for but then the day of redemption came. A true fork in the road. Was she going to kill the man who had lost her snake Bella, the one pure and good thing she had left in her life and happily go to jail knowing that justice had been served or was she going to go to detox where a bed and a new life was waiting for her? She had the most important decision of her life in front of her – life or death? Death was easy, after all, she had been choosing death, drugs and dying for over 15 years, but life? What would that look like? Who would she be on the other side of that decision? Did she want to live or even have anything to live for?
Special features of this book:
• A detailed account of what meth is, what's in it, how Christine did it and the long term damage
• How abuse and the sexual assault changed her
• A chapter specifically for parents who have a child lost in addiction. How to cope, what to do and reassurance that it’s not your fault
• How faith in a Higher Power, meetings, a sponsor and the 12 Steps changed her life
• Exclusive to this book, a never seen before look into the mind, voice and ravaging nature of her addiction
Christine has many gifts and rewards in her life today but would it surprise you to know that after 10 years of clean time her life can be almost as challenging as when she was in active addiction? She is now faced with the raw, real nature of life on life's terms with nothing to hide behind anymore. Will she make it another day or is there a chance she could go back to her old ways to numb the pain?
- File Size: 4753 KB
- Print Length: 148 pages
- Simultaneous Device Usage: Unlimited
- Publisher: Christine Hamm; 1 edition (May 14, 2016)
- Publication Date: May 14, 2016
- Sold by: Amazon Digital Services LLC
- Language: English
- ASIN: B01FPNK1MS
- Text-to-Speech: Enabled
- X-Ray: Not Enabled
- Word Wise: Enabled
- Lending: Enabled
- Enhanced Typesetting: Enabled
Honest & Gut-Wrenching
A MUST READ
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